Years ago, I was in a support group for people who had suffered various childhood traumas. I had severe depression, anxiety, and post traumatic stress disorder. Frequently, we’d all share how we spiraled down due to the negative voices going on inside. One woman, called the voices, “The committee.” The committee would call her names. The committee would say she’s ugly, not trying hard enough, a failure, dirty, embarrassing, unlovable, evil, unworthy, and so on. We all were fighting our own negative messages. To a certain extent, everyone has to fight negativity, even those who don’t have a mental illness or have not been abused. We each have a shadow side to contend with.
Since I have healed from my mental illness, I have learned to live consciously, and set up a new committee in my head. This committee tells me to keep going when I feel like giving up. This committee reminds me I am loved, I am beautiful, worthy, and I am strong when I start to feel otherwise or life is getting me down. This is the beauty of living consciously, I set my own messages and I disregard any that do not agree with me nor serve my highest good. Any messages now, that brings me down, they’re instantly tossed away. In doing so, I don’t spiral down. I use the positive committee, instead, to spiral up!
This is the essence of conscious living whether you are struggling with mental health issues, negative influences or messages from relationships and society in general. There is negativity all around, but I don’t let it bring me down, instead I consciously choose where my thoughts will go, because thoughts direct our actions. It means I’m choosing where I go, who I spend my time with, what programs on TV that lift me up and which ones take me down. It’s choosing what I eat, where I live, and what I breathe! There clearly are negative influences in this world and then there are the lifegiving ones. I choose the lifegiving ones that support me, my lifestyle, my personality, and quirks. Remember, there is always a choice to react to negativity or respond with grace and compassion.
So when the dark clouds come, and sometimes they do, I listen to my new committee, who I sometimes call my higher self, my inner self or soul. I listen to the voices that give hope, life supporting and ultimately leads to my freedom from darkness, and into the light. I spiral up, instead of down. Another aspect of conscious living, is trusting in my heart. When I’m sad and feeling unlovable and unloved, I place my hand on my heart. I feel it beating, and tune into it The heart knows a lot more than my mind. My heart’s message is, “You are loved.” “You are worthy.” “ You are strong.” “You are enough!” “Love yourself!” As I love myself, I spiral up even higher! Live consciously by loving yourself, and trusting your heart.