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Looking Within

It’s not always easy to look within. Sometimes I would rather not see or know what is hidden deep within, but I have a natural introspective and curiosity bent. A few years ago, I began a regular meditation practice because I wanted relief from anxiety and peace of mind. I got a whole lot more! I realized the areas of my life where I was faltering, I saw where I could improve but most importantly I learned acceptance. Prior to this, I was just angry, depressed, and confused. I blamed my parents for my f**ked up life. I blamed the cards I had been dealt. I blamed the people who had hurt me. I blamed everyone for the direction of my life and could not see a way out the darkness and confusion. I had no idea that I held the key to my own happiness. I didn’t know I could choose my own destiny. I thought I would just spend the rest of my life coping, struggling and surviving rather than thriving and living life to the fullest by my own will.

I realize not everyone is willing to look within. If I looked at just the external circumstances of my life, everything looked rather bleak. I was just a bad person with bad karma, and nobody loved me or cared about me. Yet, taking a peek on the inside of me, seeing that my heart hurt, yet had a lot of love to give was a bit of a shock. I could hardly believe that inside of me was a wounded little girl in need of love, acceptance, and compassion. This was a good starting point for me to turn my life around. It was a nice starting point to see where things had gone wrong or I had come to believe I was unlovable, unworthy, and dejected. It was an excellent place to begin to love myself. The more I loved and accepted that little girl, the more my love expanded to all of me, and the more I began to heal all the broken places within.

I’m very thankful I had the courage to look within. From outward appearances, I thought I would see just a dark and lifeless soul, but instead I met the loving, peaceful, and radiant woman I’ve become today. I had to go deep within to bring her out though. It’s not for the faint of heart, but it’s a beautiful gift to give to yourself, the gift of your true self. Look within, you’ll see the light that’s been hidden, you’ll find the true person under neath to accept, love and embrace. This is the person before you were wounded, the one before you were given a label, before you put on the masks, the one before you were told who you are supposed to be or how to look, your true essence of self. I always love and accept myself now.

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Overcome Fear With Love

I’ve been working on a new book. Lots of people are writing books these days. I think more people write fiction books than nonfiction or personal memoirs. I write personal stories about my life, healing, and wisdom. I think I’m pretty good but I know not everyone is not interested in this. Anyway, most of my writings are little nuggets of truth I’ve learned along the way that I use to inspire others to think differently about life and issues in general. I don’t cover everything because I choose what I’m going to focus on.

I keep hitting blocks in my writing. I am so passionate about my subject so why doesn’t it just come? Well actually it does, I believe it’s just fear. Fear of what are people going to say or not say. Not that what others say is going to matter. It’s just a matter of principle we tend to care more about what others will say or do, and it stops us from living our dreams.

Fears keep us stuck. I wrote about overcoming fear with love in my first book, Dear Sophia Love Yourself! I really have to love my subject and my message in order to get out of this fear. I really love writing and sharing with the world, but I have the occasional fears, too.

My new book is about the metaphysical world, positive energy, meditation, crystals, angels, energy healing, and how I learned about it all. It’s a fascinating field, but I know it’s not really understood by those who are not into it. I am not an expert on the subject, I am just writing about my experiences. What I really want people to know about the metaphysical world is that it’s not crazy. It’s not quackery. It’s not dark, demonic or witchcraft, even though some might perceive it that way out of fear. Even more so is my wish for everyone to know that positive energy is wonderful and can do amazing things in your life.

I was just telling someone yesterday that crystals are out there shining and glimmering in the light. They don’t hide anything. When I look at them in the light, I can’t help but see my own issues. I can’t help but notice what needs to be seen and where acceptance, forgiveness, release, and adjustments could be made in order to improve my life. I am not afraid to look in the mirror and acknowledge my flaws, but also to see my inner beauty, and shine my light. I have overcome many fears. When a light is shined upon your life, it’s to heal, it’s to take you to the next level, it’s to create something new in your life by releasing the old, or whatever it may be. It’s nothing to be feared.

Fear is paralyzing and keeps us stuck in the past, in our pain, and from moving forward. Love overcomes fear. Love is the answer. Fear cannot dwell in the space of love. Love is the most powerful force in the universe. Don’t let fear drown out your dreams and ambitions. Allow love to flow freely by releasing fear.

Peaceful meditation

When I first began to meditate, I was just curious about all the hoopla about it. So many people talked about the wonders of it, I felt like I was missing out! I had to find out! I wondered if it could really help me be more at peace with myself. I certainly wanted a lot more peace. I wanted to know if it would help me to sleep at night. I wanted to know if I could really shut down all the anxiety producing thoughts that were constantly running through my mind. The very first time, I concentrated on an LED light and I ended up falling asleep. I did it again and again. At the time, I had extreme anxiety and PTSD. I had inside and outer voices going on. I was coming out of a major depressive disorder. It worked wonders.

At some point, I was able to stay awake during the meditation time. When I’m awake while meditating, I am able to just observe my thoughts without judgment. I can see what is capable of changing. I see my knee jerk reactions, my sorrow, my happiness, and joy. I accept them all. Being in a meditative state brings about clarity. It’s calmness in the storm. It’s looking at life from a bird’s eye view and knowing it’s going to be okay. It’s letting go of all the “I have to”, “I need to”, and “I should”. It’s allowing life to happen at a natural flow. It’s going with the flow. It’s knowing what I can control, which is me, and what I can’t. Meditation has helped me to face my feelings. It has helped me to look at them and understand where they come from.

In the early days of learning to meditate, I was able to forgive lots of people, including myself. I let go of all the anger and unforgiveness by forgiving those who hurt me. I also forgave myself for those I hurt. I let others off the hook and I let myself off the hook. It’s a win-win situation. I let go of feeling guilt and shame for my past transgressions. I allowed forgiveness into my heart. It’s as easy as that! It doesn’t have to be hard or difficult.

I let go of the fear of what’s going to happen in the future. I accept that there are many unknowns and deal with what’s right in front of me. I can plan and take steps towards the future I desire, but I don’t have to have all the details worked out. I work with what’s available to me at this time while knowing and believing it’s all going to work out. If it doesn’t work out the way I planned, it’s okay. I’ll do something different! It’s okay to not have all the answers or have everything figured out. I’m at peace with myself and the world. I choose peace. I choose to be a peacemaker. I choose to live with the people in my life to the best of my ability with peace and love in my heart. I do what I can each day, then I go to bed in peace, knowing I did my best, and will carry on the next day.

I’ve made meditation a regular part of my life now. It is my number one stress reliever. It doesn’t take a lot of time. Sometimes, it’s just taking a deep breath in, and exhaling. There’s no right or wrong way to do it. I can do it anywhere and anytime. I used to hear people say, “peace is just a breath away”, now I know what it means! ¬†I breathe in peace, exhale stress! ¬†Meditation is healing for the mind and body!